I really need to start keeping up better. I don't even know where to start so I guess it will be with the one thing I am frustrated with...losing weight.
Losing weight...a topic I really don't like to discuss these days! I am having a very hard time eating right and going to the gym. I seem to be craving and craving things I am not suppose to have and what do I do? Yep, cave into the cravings. As for the gym, that is tough lately too. It seems like work is getting busier and busier. On nights I don't have meetings at work I just want to go home. Add to that our classes on Thursday and it makes it even more difficult. I will be better. I am trying to use this Spring Break week to regroup.
Fostering/Adoption classes are going well. There are times when my feelings are a little unsure but then I go back to wanting to be a foster parent or an adoptive parent again. I would assume these emotions are normal. Well, at least I hope they are. We have gone through classes dealing with grief and losses, attachment, and needs and strengths. We have done role plays about a variety of situations. While I may know a lot of the "technical" stuff I am learning more and more about the program for lack of a better word and the emotions that go along with it. I definitely have a better understanding from the child and parent's point of view.
I was really worried about the grief and losses night. I really wondered if I would be able to make it through. I was worried that our 4 years of TTC and the lose of our baby through mc would all come back. Praise the Lord though because I was fine!
We did an interesting activity this past Thursday night. We had to close our eyes and basically pretend we were the foster children going through the process. The instructor read the scenario, we imagined. It was incredibly sad. I could just see Dustin and Augge was I was leaving (I don't really think Zoey, Zeke and Gucci care either way if they get fed). Their faces were so sad. It made me incredibly sad. The scenario went that I did not see my family for over a year. There were 2 times I felt anger during the scenario. Once-when I was told I might not be able to bring pictures of my family to my new home and again when I was told I was unable to see my family for over a year. I remember so vividly how excited I was when they told me I was going home. It was a bad experience but one that is good to have so I can understand more.
We have 6 more classes left including this Thursday. I am looking forward to getting them behind us.
We are going to be working on the house. Either tomorrow or Thursday I am going to begin painting the living room. I am excited about this because I have wanted it done since we moved in 2 1/2 years ago!!!!!
Thank you to all the visitors who post. I enjoy knowing someone is reading my blabbering nonsense.
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